the girl behind the blog, everyone run in fear

no this isnt me, sadly. i sure as hell wish i looked like her. no that image comes first, the real me comes later, as i am almost sure my older brother reads this blog. soon enough though i am probably going to make a new one, if all my followers could leave some way of contact (email, and a link to your blog for verification, and so i can follow you as well :) ) i will gladly give you the link, till then, ill be comming up with some names. twelve to life seems a little immature to me, i'm sorry but i am a pretty mature person.

     still thinking about drummer..damn i wish i had enough courage to tell him. i made the mistake of telling my father i had a crush on someone, and he told my stepmom, so there goes any chance of me being able to trust that motherfucker with anything in my life.

i sinned over the weekend. i ate, and didnt purge. i cant purge in my stepmoms house. i just cant. and i cant fucking fast this weekend, so i need a five day fast. someone motivate me please! call me fat, stupid, ugly, whatver. tell me *he* wont say anything to me untill im at least 110. tell me im so fucking annoying, be as cruel as humanly possible. these are the thoughts ill keep in my head for the next five days of temptation. they will be hard, but worth it. i can lose a LOT in five days if  i try.

i finished that book. I CANT RUIN IT THOUGH!! if any of you decide to pick it up, it is worth it. its so ( so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so) good.  well, my cutest puppy ever thing didnt get any comments, lol. guess its not depressing and anorexia ridden enough. sorry ladies. ill be sure to be more negative. I HATE MY LIFE, EVERYTHING SUCKS. and now for the sarcasim. no really, i hate my fucking life. id gladly trade. no returns though, sorry.

    Well, my friend is going to prison in eight days. cheers.

and now for the circus freak, i mean creature, i mean ugly ass bitch, i mean GIRL who brings you each lovey, hungry, druggie post.

(PICTURE REMOVED!!)

YES I ACTUALLY HAD IT ON HERE

no you just didnt read my blog in time :P