ok, well, i need YOUR opinion..its a calorie thing..and a few others.
today at lunch i had a piece of pizza and a small salad, meaning a few bites. the pizza was a craving, and im sure ill find some sort of punishment, dont worry, but my mind keeps saying 600 calories, which well above my usual daily limit, and its making me unable to think straight. please help, its actually bringing me down, making me sad, and its sort of fucking with my day, which isnt cool because..IM GOIN TO A PARTYYYY. which isnt hard to do. its here at my house :P im celebrating a friends birthday, and seeing as how he is going to jail, its mostly just a "lets all get FUCKED up" party. which means, drinking, and many many drugs..though i will refrain. i dont want to binge.
Drummer is ignoring me again..its so weird!! first, he leaves me alone, then, he tells me eminem sucks (let the record show i was wearing my eminem shirt that day) then he starts talking to me, and so did his friends. and now, gone again, and seems like he absolutly HATES me. its because im so big..i havnt weighed today, but i feel huge and bloated! uggg....bad day.
i woke up, crashed on my couch, without getting a shower last night, and had to wake up, shower, apply makeup, cry because no matter how much weight i loose..
ill always be stuck with this face
(note: is it me, or is the girl in the thinspo pic still fat...)
Well, okay. So, I doubt that it's 600 cals! It's probably much less, so try not to let it get to you. Have so much fun at your party.
ReplyDeleteThat Drummer guy sounds so confusing! Maybe you should confront him about it? I don't know, though. :)
I'd like to point out that you're lovely! And you should try not to be so sad. There ARE some good things in life.
<3
i know its less, its just that i feel so fat after eating it..
ReplyDeletemakes me feel like ive eaten enough for me in a week.