WASSUP! ITS SUMMER VACATION!! YAAAAAY!! well, i am at jeffs tonight, and i am afriad that my brother broke my habits. so i have a request. if you read this, i want you to be so mean, but thinspiring. tell me how fat i am. tell me how i do not deserve talk to the boy i like. WHICH, IS NO LONGER AUSTIN. I LIKE JERRICK. oh wait, you have no clue who he is do you? thats because he is a new guy. i am going to use these two months to read all of your blogs, down to every single post. sure its a long job, but someone has got to do it. while i may ahve started blogging again, i am not going to live on the computer. i have quite a little list of obligations, but getting back in the game is number one. so, BE MEAN, CALL ME FAT, AND TELL ME THAT I AM THE UGLIEST, FATTEST, MOST HORRIBLE PERSON EVER! right now i am watched Glen Martin DDS on nick at nite. i am not a fan of the show, but i need some kind of background noise other than just We The Kings. god i am really hating Check Yes Juliet AGAIN!! Well, i believe i have given you a long account. i have told you about Jerrick (swoon!!), oh, i havnt told you how good looking he is have i? he is a lil on the short side, blonde, cute face, plays guitar, and yes, ok, he does drugs. but ok, so do i. SO there is no room for critisim from me... or others. he is this perfect boy. He is so sweet and has a good heart. he is strong willed and kind, yet he has that funny aspect i always look for. this summer my goal is to lose 20 lbs and ask him out if he is single by then. a lot of other girls think he has a good body. oh yeah.. i ahvnt told u about that, have i? can you say, Abs? did i also tell you that there are a lot of cyber pervs? i posted my email for a summer penpal (EMAIL ME AT oceaneyes122@yahoo.com pleeeeasse!((haha, look closly at that, i said ass)) i am so bored) but this guy right, emails me, telling me he is looking for a wife, a few years younger than him. he said "age doesnt matter. 13 is just a number" WHAT... THE ... FUCK!
i am going to change my background music. to Teenagers by My Chemical Romance. i am learning how to play one of their songs on the piano. OH, did i tell you Jerrick plays an instrument. lol, i think i did. i just cant get my mind off of him. we text and chat on days we dont see each other, and he is the one who always starts the conversation. but hey, i am still going to lose 20 lbs. i think that if i read my older posts, i can get my mindset back. it like, its there, but its damaged. like a bird with a broken wing. WELL, I AM OUUUTT!
you sound a little brighter and a little happier. why would you want tht mindset back =/
ReplyDeletebecause its as a part of me as breathing. its a piece of my identity. its part of my mind. i cant help missing it. and you kno what the most pathetic thing is? i miss jackie. i miss how comforting she was. i dont have someone in my life, so i am determind to get her back
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