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exercise. here is the list of things i just did after having a binge and getting to 133
.100 leg squats
.170 leg lifts per leg
.80 crunches (getting ready to do more) see lower posts for how i do my crunches
. only ten push ups. i hate push ups. then i did maybe three laps around my kitchen, walking. i did laps for the squats, bending deep into the squat. i am going to do twenty more crunches, twenty more push ups, and a few more leg lifts, then i am going to go to sleep. i have purged a lot tonight. i am going to look at some thinspo before i get back to work. i havnt seriously exercised in a long ass time haha. but i like it. i like feeling my muscles under my skin, slowly shredding my fat. muscles are wonderful things. i dont want big muscles though. i want to be absolutly tiny. and shock everyone. on the first day of school, when all the haters gossip about me (i have a *lot* of haters haha) instead of them saying "OH my GOD sierra is soo fat!" and laugh, i want them to say something like "Have you seen sierra? she must have dropped twenty pounds." i want them to take their snide little remarks and shove it down their high calorie ingesting throats! i am going to be thin. i tried on a pair of grey skinny jeans. they wouldnt even fit over my lower thigh a month ago, now i can get them on, but i cant button them and they are waaaaaaay tight. but, i am wearing a pair of pj shorts that used to be a second skin when i was 158. i have found great thinspo sites, one is run by our own lemons, the other is http://www.thinspiration-pictures.blogspot.com/. I LOVE THEIR THINSPO!! also i looked up some pics of lindsey lohan (love!) nicole richie, and rhianna.  here are come pics of lindsey that i absooluty love!

i found some of megan fox, but to be honest, i hate megan fox. she seems so mean! and she isnt even that thin, i mean, look at the last pic of lindsey i posted, then look at these of megan. i am not saying she is bad looking (i would KILL for her body) but, she isnt my best thinspo celeb, but you may enjoy the pictures.

or maybe even better..

see? not that thinspiring. i like the ones i post of regular models. or even real girl thinspo. like, before and after pictures. those are the best, because then i think about how they worked hard and lost the weight. and to the girls who do that, i thank you. YOU are the GREATEST thinspo of all. one day, i hope to be thin. i do, and i will thank everyone. because without support, we will all fail