Food is the enemy, not a treat. The real deprivation is never being thin

    i have been googling so much thinspo today. i have more thinspo on my laptop then my guy friends have porn. and thats saying somthing (: . anywho! i did my work out today, i did 100 crunches, and 200 leg lifts per leg, then i did some thigh shaping exercises. i want thinner thighs so bad. i thought i saw my thighs gap today. i did, but then i moved my legs closer together. TA-DA! i have made my good mood DISAPEAR! no, but i did find some great quotes.

• "I am your butter and your bread. The voice that's in your head. I'll take you in and fill you up with a lack of being fed" -Ana
• I do eat: only what is needed for survival. I can't help it that we live in a piggish society where gluttony is the norm, and everyone else is constantly stuffing themselves.
• Every time you say "No Thank you", You say " Yes Please" to Thin.
•  Let me be empty and weightless and maybe I'll find some peace tonight

i have like, 1,000 others. i am going to make this blog more thinspiring. this blog is no longer just my rants. this blog is now a blog of support. the reason i dont add "ana" anywhere in the title, is because i dont want to be shut down. i have heard of that happening. thats what is happening to all the good blogs! pray yours isnt next..
i was watching something on youtube about nicole richie (i am almost obcessed now. shhhh) and they said that she posted somehting on her twitter, or myspace or something but it said
          "my birthday is comming up. there will be a scale at the door, any girls over 100 pounds will be turned down." or something like that. and so i was thinking.. why not shoot for less that 100? later though. right now i am just trying to get down to 125! my dad keeps on remarking about my weight. i need to stop purging there and just starve. starvation is key to a much thinner me. haha i made it rhyme. so ladies, how is your fasting and restricting going? i have to announce something.. i am going to be going to baltimore over the weekend, so i wont have a chance to post, i dont think. maybe the hotel has wi-fi. but we (Dad, me and my future stepmom) are going to be going to the aquarium and then on a hot air ballon ride, see, i told dad i was 135, but i am now 133, so its not going to be that big of a difference. i go back to school on the 24th, so there is less time to post than ever! but dont worry, this is a good thing. this ensures that i dont have to eat breakfast OR lunch. school does have a good purpose, keeping me away from temptation. if you think school food is tempting, think about it this way. ITS COVERED IN GREASE, THE MILK HAS 170 CALS A CARTON, THE FISH STICKS ARE CHEWY AND DONT EVEN ASK ME ABOUT THE BURGERS! they have no nurtrition! not a single healthy meal! i mean, i have to buy food, but i am not going to eat it, i can and will resist, the key is to move the food around your plate, not to eat. then you scrap your tray, and contently listen to your stomach grumble. my legs are getting stronger. i cant wait for PE this year. i know right? totally the worst class for a fat girl.. but for a girl working to lose weight.. its a miracle. miracle is a funny word, you know? its so unusual.. but anyway. i am on a total plateu. does anyone have any good tips? i have updated the thinspo page BTW. should i make a page for all my quotes? i dont think i should. who am i to tell you girls thinspiring things when i am so far away from completing my journey to be thin and hopefully normal. i dream about what i will look like. thin, blonde hair, green eyes, tanned, gorgous. i saw a Mustang 2 or a Baby mustang for sale. its a piece of junk, but i am trying to convince my dad to buy it and fix it up for me. i absolutly love it! now i know that you are thinking, "arnt you 13?" YES. yes i am. but i think that that car is perfect. and the inside is only big enough for a thin girl. the car is good thinspo for me. well, time to go watch some tv, work out some more, then pass out, go to jeffs, sleep, binge, purge, come home and repeat.
love all you girls to the bones xooooxooo