he will never like me, not untill i am thin

ok, few rules on the blog..i am changing my user name to "skinny ann" because thats the name i usually pose under, such as, and i know it sounds stupid so dont laugh, i went onto this chatroom 321teenchat.com (its a great distraction from hunger, but there are a lot of pervs) and i asked the people on there what they thought someone my age and height should weigh. the answer was "100" so i guess that tells you how ignorant people are. and the guys i crush on, or my friends, will now have fake names. so i am going this for mine, and their security. also,  i have news.
     tomorrow is my last day of summer vacation. i am going to call my friend *sue* (i am uncreative) to hang out. hopefully we can chill, but her dad makes a ton of food..
     
     second, my mom and i had a really awkward moment yesterday. we..um..involved ourselves in rereactional drug use...ok so i rolled a joint and smoked it with her and my brother. i needed something to do and it calmed me down. bad thing is, i binged and had ramen noodles. my moms friend *jane* is such a bitch! all she does is bitch and moan about how much she worked that day, and she talks shit on my brother. next time she does, i know what i am going to do though. i swear to god..i am going to bitch slap her.
     
      so the title of this post..i guess you are wondering. well, there is this guy i have been liking for a while.. his name begins with an S but i will now call him *david*. anyway, david dated my friend *nicole*, then when they broke up, we became friends. really good friends. and then right when i was going to ask him out, he started dating another girl *whitney*. NOW THAT THEY BROKE UP~~ i had my hopes up that he would ask me out, but of course, haha, being close friends, when i asked him how he was, he told me he had a crush on his drum major..he plays some kind of drum in his school band. so i spent all that night crying and listening to some superchick (guilty pleasure#2) and i relised, the last time he saw me, i was fat. now i am pretty much a lot thinner (you can see my colarbone!!!)  so that means he likes thinner girls. so i want to be as thin as possible. i have all year till i see him again, and i will be under 125. i am five pounds away from reaching my first SERIOUS goal. wish me luck girls. now that i can taste victory so close to being mine, i relise it tastes better than any food. any pasta, dessert, or meat (yuck) that i can ever imagine