school

  
today was my SECOND day of being an eigth grader. my school is fine, and i have a few classes with friends, and i got into the class i really really really wanted to...world geography, and the teacher is awesome. yesterday was the first thing i  heard about my weight.. ms *greene* said "Youve gotten so much thinner..."yes that was a compliment..but the next part isnt "you need to eat more." eat more? EAT MORE???? FUCK NO I AM NOT GONA EAT MORE BITCH! i spent all summer without any good foods. no cakes, chocolates, chips, soda's (that werent diet) and any yunk food. so for the past two days, i havnt bought lunch. my school has started providing chef salads, with the meat and cheese separated, so if i take that out, its only a bowl of lettuce. which i think would taste good...all i had for lunch yesterday was *sighs* two french fries, and a cracker that my friends made me eat, but today all i had was a bottle of water. this girl i sat across from *meena* didnt eat eaither. we both had this look on our face like if we ate...we would die or something. my friend *lindsey* tried to make me eat a hotdog..eww! do you KNOW how many calories are in school hotdogs? gross. and they taste horrible.
    my math class sucks. the teacher woke me up from my nap.
my locker is close to my best friend *taylor* and her HOT cousin...but i need to stop thinking he is hot because Taylor is my second cousin...making me and her cousin related..damn. BUT HE IS SO CUTE! his eyes are brown, and his hair is really long, and blone-ish...i used to have a crush on him, but now i have a crush on a guy named *andrew*..who is in my english class...and is hot. his hair is short, and his eyes are blue and he is a trouble maker, and i stay silent in my classes, not having anything to say, and nobody having anything to say to a fat girl.
         tomorrow is my first day of gym class for the year. well, monday was, but tomorrow i will actually have to do work, which is good. i can burn calories this way. and its at the beginning of the day, so if i dont eat breakfast, burn calories in gym, and skip lunch again, ill be in good shape. what i did today was the walk from the eigth grade hallway and my cafeteria is a long one, so once i got into the caf. i asked the teacher if i could go back and get the water bottle i forgot in my locker. so that means that i have to walk that long distance twice, and not eat any lunch. my stomach is hurting sooooooo much.. so so much.. i need thinspo. thinspo=food. thinspo is all i need to fill up my empty stomach.