skittles

170 calories per serving. ew. i have cut out all candies, and any soda's that arnt diet sodas. and as for my quest for high fiber, i have pulled out a few bits of information. (WARNING, KINDA GROSS) the goal isnt laxative, the goal is regularity, and i can go and pick up some vitamins at rite aide. experts say that if you dont "go number two" twice a day, for a day you can be carrying about 5 lbs of extra weight, and if you only go once a week.. they say it is about TWENTY LBS. that means i could be about 110. so i am flushing my system with ice water. today i ate shamlessly. a ate a few sunchips (wheat, not potato) and some hamburger helper, but i kept it under 600. i have learned some tips for burning calories immediatly. flex your legs, arms, and mostly abdominal muscles as hard as you can, for as long as you can. then i dismiss myself, purge, repeat the flexing, then i do some crunches, but instead of being on the ground, sit on your bed so you are hanging upsidedown over one side, then go your crunches, depending soly on your abs to help you up. do as many as you can, till your sides hurt, then do some wall sits, and some push ups. after every meal, and in the morning and before you go to sleep. it is almost exasting, then sleep as much as you can. you burn calories in your sleep, an you cant feel the hunger pains. i know i am giving a lot of tips, but i feel like we are a community, a misunderstood community, and it is our job to help one another.
        School is starting soon. i found a shirt i really really really really want.. its an MCR shirt. here is a pic

so yeah i thought this was pretty awesome. kinda goes along with my "style" i guess. i am trying to reinvent myself as a person. i was about to say a fat person, which i am, but my dad wouldnt stop talking about "how much weight i have lost." he had the nerve to tell me i was getting pretty pudgy but honestly, i have completly lost my extra stomach. its flat, but i have (gross alert again) 36c breasts, and curvy hips, blonde hair, and a freakish nose. i think i might need to post a pic of me, but i dont think it would impress. i am rather ugly. and, what if someone finds this blog? thats why i am not posting anything other than words, tips, and pics. pics can be of anything but me and people i know.  i am not going to risk losing this again. i gained so much after taking a break. i need to weigh again and do my work out.

      16 more days till i am stuck in purgatory for a year. school. 8th grade. no sam, no austin, but i have some friends there still. hopefully being thinner will help out a bit.