1. my gym teacher is the devil and makes us run till we throw up (cant say i mind that one, gets out anything that doesnt belong.)
2. i never eat lunch. or breakfast. and i throw up dinner, but i think when i get home i will do my homework, write a blog post, read some, write some, take a shower, then go to bed.
3, i can refuse food if i think about what beauty truley is
4. i can avoid the questions if i dont slip up
5. i can endure the pain, if i try
its all easy sounding, but wait till you havnt eaten in such a long time, ur body worn out from running..i personally love it. it makes me feel like ive had a busy day. instead of being a fat pig. which i know i am. and ugly, squeeling pig. so i dont talk, and i keep my head bowed, looking at my feet, only talking when talked to, short answers if possible. getting all my work done and then going away so i can be alone. i like being alone. the solitude of myself instead of the feeling like im in a zoo, or like im taking a test, seeing what the others think about me...
"i saw this band in concert"-me
"they suck!"- person im trying to be friends with...they will never speak to me again..like today for instance, i offered a boy the chance to cheat off me, and he said no, with an incredibly rude remark..so fuck him he is mean to me, when all i want is the comfort of being alone.
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