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"its hard to try and move on, but its not impossible."

   J is the brother that was taken to rehab. the one that i never was able to truly mention to you ladies. and i am really, really sorry about that. our internet did get cut off, and i made a new blog, but like an idiot i decided to change the name of it and sort if just disapear, and write to pretty much only one person. which means it did absolutly nothing for me. you ladies provide a lot of support, more than you even know.

So...i guess i need to fill you guys in.

• i weigh 127 (i think)
• i am failing geography and algebra
• j is in rehab
• im drinking more
• im smoking more
• i got started on pills
• and now the one that i regret telling you...

i was so stupid, so naive, so gulible..i hope you ladies can forgive me, honestly. i thought i was smarter than this. i had sex with one of my brothers friends. he is close to my age, but he has a girlfriend. he hurt me pretty bad, but i just relized a few days ago that i have the ability to play a very fun, and dangerous game... a girls gotta have her fun, right? the plan is to just blow him off. its fun for me, bad for him. i got so pissed on friday when he asked me for head after i hadent seen him for a month, and HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND. So, i just went back to my brothers room and chilled with his friends, leaving him alone in the living room for a solid hour. i refuse to have sex (in any form) with him ever again, but, i'm not against kissing him. kissing him then ignoring him for a while. just for a little bit of revenge.
   he talks about his girl all the time around me. its kinda hurtful. for instance, i told him i was going to go robbin soon, and he said for me to not steal from his girl, which started the whole conversation about him getting back together with her.
  
    its enough to make me do the unthinkable and pretend i have a boyfriend. actually, no, forget i said that. thats a little too immature.