insane

well..day two of my fast is going well..my head is spinning, and im so hungry! this is the longest ive actually been able to fast i think. no breakfast, ran in gym, some football then as well, then i didnt eat lunch, came home, and got on my laptop to distract myself from the kitchen. but i am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so SO (x1000000) hungry! maybe a can of campbells  chicken noodle soup..or some rice..or ramen..mmmmm ramen..spicy ramen. it is beef ramen noodles (maruchen is the best!) with cheyanne pepper, red pepper flakes, and chili powder in it. yum!
but its only day two of my fast, and im 127.6..thats still way to much. and its like, 360 calories. which is a LOT. thats like, 200 more calories than i usually have in a day. my source of calories is beer, and im trying to stop drinking, to keep my liver from turning into a black stone or whatever.
my mom is letting me get my ears piecred again (second hole) though she doesnt know its my overdue reward for reaching 140. and shes letting me dye my hair, and she doesnt know thats a reward for getting into the 120's. i think if i fast the rest of today, eat a bit on wednesday (mom is making dinner..i will eat as little as possible, and be purging it up.) and thursday and friday, i should be back down past 125.
wish me luck, as i wish you girls luck on your fasting, restricting, recovering, finding yourself, fixing relationships, gaining courage and confidence, or whatever your up to :P
time to distract myself from food...