progression in reversal

so, i am 122. in the morning, ill be at my plateu of 121. i am so close, ladies. i just need to get to 115 or 110 before spring break. so i can actually wear shorts. i love shorts. i feel like if i could wear some normal girl clothes and be around the right people, i can be done with you-know-who. i havnt heard from him in a while. he found my facebook, friended me, but apparently his bitch got mad at him for talkin to me, because he deleted the psot that i commented on and his girl wrote a comment that says
              
           "sorrry laadiess but hes taken; by the bessst♥ so dont botherr ;) i love you baby; with all my heart.foreve_&always! love always, your girlfriend♥"

first off..the extra letters. i cannot stand it. at all. whatsoever. its too..girly. is that why is he doesnt want me? because im a tomboy? he chills with big sister, who is a tomboy too. i enjoy the freedom. i like not being tied down in frilly lace and skirts. high heels and hairstyles. i comb my hair in the morning, throw on some jeans, plaster on my makeup, and i look decent. but, i am done with that cuntnugget. i am totally through. i dont need that at all. hes just one guy. there are 3 billion people in the world. there are more women than men..so, like, 1.5 billion people on the planet are men. just one fish in an endless sea.

i have been losing weight, but i am STUCK at 121. i cant get lower. i need motivation. can you ladies do me a favor? this is the second time ive asked this of you, and last time, nobody took me up on it. i need you to be as mean, vicous, nasty, cruel, and heartless as possible. call me fat, stupid, whorish, disgusting, fugly, be complete bitches! please! take out all your anger on me! blame me and my fatness for all your problems. please?



please?



THINSPO! I NEED THINSPO! I lovvveee thinspo! its so beautiful, so inspiring, so..simple. perfect. i think that i need to find more good thinspo sites, and new, easy-to-stick-to diets. despite what people think, what we do is not easy. they should try to resist eating for a week. see how well they do. but remember, you CANT eat. you cry, scream, kick and bitch every time somethin tasty hits your lips. you cant fuckin stand it. you cant stand yourself. at least, thats how i feel. thats how i felt today when i ate a ham and cheese sandwich at lunch! ug! gross...