absolution

today i ate a mcChicken with no mayo. i figure thats not too awful. that and i hade two tomatoes. i really didnt eat much because i am somewhere between royally pissed off and i want to go back to cutting.
what kind of boy asks a girl out when he still loves his ex?
he'll never get away from her
she'll always be his
and i
am not her
what am i thinking?
trying to pretend that i may have a chance at being with him?
i don't want to be hurt, not again. if i fall to deep i'll die
maybe if i lost weight
and was prettier than her
maybe then
he would love me instead
i have found my new inspiration
to win against this bloodsucking harpie and show this boy that she isnt here, that she isnt comming back. but that i am here. and i always will be. whenever he'd need me.
love my ass
thats just what a basic friend does. and my basic friends say that i need to win him over
so this little girl is pulling out all the stops
maybe then i'll show him that he will be happier with me
him. this boy who hates relationships and me, the girl who hates love. and everything to do with it. the girl who finds herself trapped in a ten foot deep hole after just climbing out of another one